Heartbreak

Facing much more limitations and problems than I ever imagine can be possible, yet appreciating every little good thing the relationship can offer, makes me sigh with envy every time I think about it now.


But it has to end. (Why? I can't help but ask.)

The inevitable feeling of loss, probably the worst feeling in the world. Unfortunately I've experienced it too many times to not forget how painful it was. It feels like, something inside you broke. And no matter what you do, what you don't do, what you think, what you don't think, will not rid of this feeling.

Some say, time heals. Truth is, time will only reduce the impact of the abruptness of that feeling. Once you think about it for a little too long again, once a song that reminds you of him pops out from your iPod, once you see him/his picture after so long, once someone mention his name, the entire memory bank of memories of you and him appears in your mind and the feeling rushes back and everything just hits you like a brick.

You can pretend, but deep inside, you cannot deny what I typed is the very truth. We've been, I've been, trying so hard to conceal, to deny ourselves/myself, to just distract ourselves/myself so I will stop thinking but deep down I know this is all real.







Ever wonder, why they call it a 'heartbreak'?


P/s: Sorry, this is one of the few times I feel emotional and have to pen them down. /: