"I reach over to the spot he should be sleeping in, and I am pierced with a pain so sudden and blinding that I pray as I shiver, pray for death and an end to this pain. But of course, I go on breathing and soon the pain lessens. I miss everything about him being in my life. Not just the good things. I miss his flaws as achingly as I miss the beautiful parts of him. I miss his impatience, his anger. I miss the patronizing look he would give me sometimes when I was mad at him. This is the thing, I think often, that never occurs to you when you consider what it would be like to lose someone you love. You would miss not just the flowers and kisses, but the totality of the experience. You miss the failures and little evils with as much desperation as you miss being held in the middle of the night. I wish he was here now, and I was kissing him. I wish he was here now, and I was betraying him. Either would be so fine, so fine, as long as he was here."

From a book that I'm reading recently. IDK why I'm interested in expressions for heartbreaks. Mmm.


Btw, Nadiah showed me this, OMG HAHAHA :/