I know this only happens because the situation calls for it. I know I will do this too if I were you. I know I should be more confident of myself for this. But I'm really not comfortable. Especially because there had been a past. But what can I do?????????????????????? How can I get over it because there is simply nothing I can do??????????? And I was the last to know that it has to last for over a month. Maybe I will just die, but I hope I find a way to survive.