My new hair for new year! :D Not much difference actually lol.


Overall, I feel that this is perhaps the hardest year I have gone thru. Not willing to believe that, I went to look at my archives (thank god for this historic blog of mine that I hanged on to now it is paying off to help me remember stuff!) and realised around this time last year, I wasn't too happy because I was preoccupied with Waves 15 and my dad's health. To me it had been worst or rather, the hardest year that I had been thru too. I guess that is almost the same for everyone out there, where we all experience things that were within our control, but we made the wrong decisions and could not turn things back to the way it was, and things that were not even within our control, and we simply have to continue life as it goes on. But bear in mind one thing my readers, is that although it gets harder and harder every year, we might face more happy occasions, sad occasions, problems, challenges, but look where we are today? You are still here aren't you? Things might not have turned better for you after the unfortunate event, but guess what? You are still here, to make things better this year! Every year I tell myself, yes I am a year older, but also, I am a year wiser, and stronger. I learnt how to give and take, I learnt how to let go when I have to, and I learnt that there are always bigger problems out there and you are not the only one suffering at this moment. I guess this year's breakthrough for me is to spend almost seven months away from Singapore, a place I already call home. I don't feel as attached, as I will go overseas at least once a year, sometimes twice and even thrice. More often to Hong Kong where all my relatives are, and also to other places. But the longest I had been away was about a month? This seven months out in the United States, in a totally different environment, had been the biggest challenge for me yet. I realised now, that I am a little bit back to what I was before I went, I forgot what I grew up to when I was there alone, with only my friends to depend on for some stuff. The freedom and independence I experienced was unbelieveable and had changed me. Nothing is no longer so important that it would affect all of my life, yes, not even my family or BGR that some people still think is their life (and they would die when they lose their 'other half'). Your life is not over because you still have your family. After you have your own family (get married and kids etc.), then you come and tell me about it. But right now, at the age of (close to TuT) 20, I cannot pin point which year was the best, which was the worst? I could only picture some of the best moments of my life, and I don't just mean happy moments, but also sad moments where I learn about myself or change something inside me that change my view on things. Also people's big moments that had left impact on me and my life. Those moments, are truly the best and you cannot just forget them and just say that a certain year was the best because there were more of those kind of special moments in that year. What I am trying to say here is perhaps, for 2012, we should all just take a step back, look at who is truly with you and appreciate them more this year, and those who you are just trying so hard to stick by, and just let them go. If the year is ending in 2012, how are you spending YOUR 2012? I would be the one just embracing life as it brings me my worst obstacles and challenges where I overcome them and make the best out of it. Expect less, appreciate more. My quote for the year ahead?: Don't live for a reason. Live for several. Don't focus on one thought. Keep your mind occupied with a dozen. Don't be happy/sad. Open up your heart and let your emotions flow and overtake to experience. Don't stay in your comfort zones. Dare to challenge your limits. Happy new year my readers. I hope you enjoyed the rough ride with me in 2011. Thank you and lets welcome 2012 with our hearts open for more love in this world! :D