One of the nights at butter with my party girls when the theme was Blue ;)

So yesterday I woke up in the wee hours to pick KK up at the airport, brought him and his family some good tauhuey, nap for a bit, drove home, freshen up in a few minutes, drove out for a job interview (because it was way too hot for public transport), back home in 1.5 hour, went to bed and woke up this morning at 8ish so I slept for like...14 hours? Went to Clarke Quay's Brewerkz for brunch, bought some shampoo etc from Chinatown and cab home (too heavy my shopping bags, and weather. Weather making me splurge which is bad!) and pretty much laze around watching So You Think You Can Dance season 8 and having eye-gasms. Pretty psyched for tomorrow NIGHT... but not tomorrow morning because it's my graduation and I am seriously not mentally prepared for it. Ugh didn't think about it at all and only did so this afternoon and now I have the jitters :( 

I guess I can be happy? Since it will really mark the end of my Poly life and now I'm ready for my next phase, but that also reminds me how uncertain my future is going to be. I'm just not ready to face people who have so much and so high expectations of me and I myself have the highest of them all.

Yet I haven't truly answered to myself. Well kind of once, in front of KK, but I broke down and it was pretty bad but he consoled me (love you so much for that ^u^) and I have been avoiding the issue since. What I can do now is to be vague about it when people ask, be happy when people don't, and continue to wait, and distract myself while doing that. Not sure if I can smile tomorrow on stage. Hope I feel better soon.

P/s: Actually I can't exactly smile properly even if I wanted to because I'm still self-conscious about the metal in my mouth and canz only doz weird expressions like the ones on top.